What is acceptance? We talk about in in terms of grieving a lot, but I think it applies to more than getting over a loss or adjusting to a change that you didn’t choose. For example, it’s accepting that, as much as I’d like to have this rough draft of Singularity done already, it isn’t quite there yet. I had a sense of exhaustion last night when I was running my file backups and realized that I’ve been working on it since late March, and just hit Chapter 30. I looked back over blog and journal entries these months and acknowledged that I need to slow down doing these rough drafts to pin down the research and storyline right, but now my spirit is at a place of accepting it. I’m excited about this story and want the draft done, but I need to slow down and channel that energy correctly to complete a solid draft that won’t be a nightmare of rewrites later this year. That happened with Broken Time and Duality, and I've learned from my mistakes. Now's the time to apply the wisdom I gained from those experiences, meaning slow down the rough draft and do it right the first time. Or as right as a rough draft can be.
It’s part of day-to-day life as well. As much as I’m over the stupid-hot heat waves of summer, the truth is that it’s August, and it will be a lot easier if I accept that it’s summer and let it be what it is until it passes in a couple of months. It’s that and gratitude for air conditioning, or being absolutely miserable until October. It’s accepting that we took a financial hit a couple of months ago with some major vehicle repairs, and the only way to recover is to stick to the budget and plan to pay down the balance. It’s continuing to do my workouts every evening no matter how tired I am so I'll be strong, healthy, and won’t feel like a pig-in-a-poke. And a million other little things about being a responsible adult, living the life I’m blessed with, to ensure that I’m achieving my full potential, living it to the fullest, and laying the groundwork for a future that I’ll also be happy with. One thing I do believe we have to remember is that acceptance doesn’t mean you’re alright with things. It means that you choose to accept reality for what it is and commit to doing the best you can with it. Then you’re ready for the next step of opening your eyes to your blessings and the opportunities that are part of that acceptance.
Yes, we accept more than we realize. We just don’t realize how often this decision lies before us. I’m not sure what brought this to my attention for this blog entry. The manuscript, I suppose. Writing a book always hijacks your brain, especially when you have one part in your own little world and one in your reality. Then again, it could also be that acceptance is a theme that my characters are dealing with. Funny how life and art imitate one another sometimes.
The manuscript will get finished, and probably before the end of the month. I’m accepting that it’s going to take a little more time to write the final third of this novel. At least it’s coming to life, which is more than it was five months ago.
That’s progress, and that’s something to be thankful for.
That’s all today. Take care, and have a Happy Friday and a wonderful weekend.