And then on the other hand, I also find some relief. There’s still that voice of hope in my head that says praise God, I made it! I’m not only still standing, but somehow managed to find some progress in this see-saw that life has been. One thing I’ve heard a lot of people say since Rick’s father passed is that they’re surprised that we seem to be doing ok and even thriving despite our setbacks. Just because life made us victims on several occasions didn’t mean we had to stay in that role, and we were committed to become victors over our circumstances. It’s opened my eyes in a strange way, and I see now that I need to stop fixating on things. The ghost of the past isn’t going anywhere – it can stay back there and can’t really haunt me if I’ve learned from my experiences and am applying that wisdom to the present. It’s time to let things go; to be true to myself; to do the best with what I’ve got; to stand when life throws me challenges; to always take advantage of opportunities; to work hard and do my best at all that is before me; to keep growing and learning; and to always give thanks for our blessings. I’ve made it this far and I still have a good journey ahead. All that has happened has made me a stronger person, and I am where I am for a reason. Forward is the way to go.
I do hope that 2015 brings about better days. More than anything, I want things to be better and to stay better. Life isn’t perfect, and I won’t even pretend that it’s all good and we’re alright with everything. We most certainly are not, but the world keeps turning and we have no choice but to go with it. So we do the best with what we’ve got; praying that we’re sowing good seeds for a better harvest in the future.
As for resolutions, I don’t have anything new. It seems that when I do make resolutions, they’re large, lifestyle changing type things that are a long term commitment – which is why I don’t make them lightly. I do plan to continue my journey on bringing more positive thinking and energy into my life, which was a resolution from this year that, I believe, is still a work in progress as I consider how to apply what I’ve learned to everyday living. I would also like to have rough drafts and rewrites completed on all three books of The Earthside Trilogy written by Thanksgiving. That will be my sole writing project for 2015, because I believe it will need my entire focus. I might do short stories and articles here and there, but as for “big projects,” that trilogy is the only for 2015.
So that’s our year. In closing, I’d like to leave you with the 2014 winner of my “Dose of Awesome.” As you know, I often post videos and clips that impress me, often with the title of “Your Weekly Dose of Awesome.” Well, below is your winner for the year. It’s “I’m Not Alone” from The Hobbit – The Battle of the Five Armies. This is a very small portion of a bigger and very impressive scene.
Thanks for hanging in there as it spread over four blog entries. I hope you have a safe and Happy Holiday season. Merry Christmas and Happy New Year!