Why do I say this? Because I see the compounding negative effects manifesting in my life, and that’s not how I want things to be. I know in my heart that the Lord wants better for me, and I need to do my part so He can do His part to make it manifest. It’s time to turn myself around. It’s time to get on the right track. It’s time for things to change for the better, and that can’t happen until I change for the better.
Small things do matter. I can attest to that by the way things have been sliding downhill in my personal life, and how I came to realize it was time to turn the tide because I was putting the wrong message out there. That’s the problem with feeling bad about yourself. Other people pick up on it, and try to take advantage of you. In a way this shouldn’t be surprising, because that’s human nature. People are naturally inclined to take advantage of others when they’re down, because respect and cooperation are work, and stepping on others is an easy and lazy way to build yourself up. It’s also a way that human nature is wrong, and I’m refuting that. I’ve pissed some people off by getting back on my feet, and I’m not sorry. I’m not the depressed personality type. Everybody should have seen this realization and breakthrough coming. I’m predictable that way. I don’t stay down. Eventually, I get frustrated and want to be happy and living the best life possible again. That happened in the past month. Thanks be to God.
I’ve also tremendously relieved everybody in my inner circle and a lot of other people who are glad to see me being “myself” again. Thankfully, that’s the majority of people I’m surrounded by. There’s one right thing in my life. The people you choose to be around matters in being a better person and building a better life, and my family and friends are definitely what I need to move forward. What an awesome group. Good people do exist, and I’m blessed to be surrounded by a lot of them! To them, I offer an abundance of love, gratitude, and grace for their support. You are the ones who helped me come to this place. Your strength became my strength to lift me back up. That’s how we’re supposed to live: in love and support of one another. I pray I’m of similar support to you in your times of need. You know how fiercely loyal I am to family and friends. I’ve got your back. You can count on that.
So here we are. It’s time to get on a better path. What is it? I had an interesting discussion with the pastor yesterday about how there are no “once size fits all” answers in life. Often, the answer is to live a day at a time, do the best you can, and follow the leading of the Holy Spirit to build a better today, and tomorrow. You take each thing as it comes. It’s frustrating to not have a “strategy,” but in another way it doesn’t get much easier than obedience and taking a day at a time. The important thing is knowing the goal, and making sure every thought, word, and action leads you in that direction. Accept what does, seize opportunities, sow good things, nurture right relationships, and reject the devil’s lies in people and circumstances that conflict with it. Ok, it sounds easier than it is. To simply stand isn’t so simple. But it can be done, and by the grace of God, I will. Small things. Big differences. Great results.
I don’t know what comes next, or what the “big picture” plan is, but I do know this in my spirit: it’s time for a change, and by His grace, change will come. There’s a better way, and I’m on that journey now. Thanks be to God.
That’s all today. Take care, and have a great week.